Another day of sadness and tears. I am sad most of all for hurting the people I love, and even if the motive was not to harm, the end result was just that. And I take responsibility for that, irrespective of what my intentions were. Because I did not foresee the end in the beginning does not excuse me one iota. I am to blame.

I feel naive and stupid for not anticipating disaster and foolish for buying into my own illusions. This is a side of me that I yearn to change and will work on over the coming months. God willing I will become a better man.