A difficult day today. Not in terms of being overly busy or stressed out by events or commitments. In that sense it was quite easy. The difficulty was emotional; dealing with negative thoughts and feelings arising from circumstances in my life. It's strange really, that I can be so relaxed and on top of things one day and brooding, without any obvious spark , the next. It's easy to be complacent, until unresolved resentments and fears flame up. And for some reason these negative aspects tend to cycle through the day, irrespective of what else is happening.

Tonight I'll spend time in prayer and in meditation and try to end the evening on a more positive note. Uncertainty about the future will eventually be made clearer and many of my fears may prove to be unfounded. Even where they come to pass, there are ways of accepting without the attendant emotional agony.

Even just writing about things is helpful.